说实话，我压根没料到会引发这样的反响。《Digital Girl》是我早年一个未完成的项目，当时我给一位熟人播放旧 demo 时，对方听到了这首歌。他让我放下手头所有事，先把这首做完。

因为他知道我 remix 的《Come Back》，所以对Lostwave有所了解，于是就萌生了用这首歌伪造一首“LW”的想法。我其实对《Digital Girl》没太在意——就像我说的，这是 2019 年的废弃项目，当时我刚买了 Digitech Talker 效果器，开始用它制作声码器歌曲。所以我随口答应了，没觉得这能掀起什么波澜。这首歌既没那么特别，也不像《Fond My Mind》或《EKT》那样有话题度。

当时分工是我负责音频相关的工作，他来编造故事。我特别不擅长构思这些，就全交给了他。那些账号我一个都没权限（我只有一个旧 Instagram 账号，后来忍无可忍想按自己的方式发布歌曲时，才把用户名改成了emails）。

你们知道为什么过了这么久才发布吗？因为它根本没做完。2019 年我构思的版本，大部分文件都丢了，包括声码器的原始录音。我本想把整首歌从头到尾重制一遍，免得听起来太糟糕，但他一直威胁施压，逼我保留原样，只做些新的混音和完整的开头/结尾。后来发布的《Lost In The Code》版本就是这么来的，它本应是最终成品。按理说，没人该听到那个粗糙的片段，一切都太仓促、太混乱——因为他就想靠这个在网上博眼球。他还打算等《Digital Girl》爆火、“火遍全网”后，以我的“策划人/经纪人”自居，把所有功劳都揽在自己身上。

可事情根本没按他的剧本走。他急于求成，编了一堆漏洞百出的瞎话，结果搞砸了，却把烂摊子丢给我收拾，让我去善后。现在倒好，突然所有账号都归我管了，我还成了“这事儿唯一的幕后推手”。

为什么我没在直播里说这些？因为当时他就跟我在一起。那段日子对我来说就是活地狱：他对这破事投入得太深，甚至会在我家门外蹲守，等我出门。我花了将近 1000 美元租录音棚、买设备，就为了在发布 demo 前至少让混音听起来像样点——结果大家还是都不喜欢，这亏我认了。

不过现在，我已经搬到很远的地方，和他彻底断了联系。过去几个月里，我也一直在采取法律行动，追回属于我的东西（幕后还有很多你们不知道的事，因为性质更严重、也更私人，我就不细说了）。现在事情基本解决了，我终于能站出来把前因后果说清楚，不用再担心他出现搞事。

信不信随你们，我已经不在乎了。你们被蒙在鼓里这么久，就算有人说我在扯谎，我也能理解。我后来继续用emails这个账号发布内容，是因为我终于有机会把自己一直没勇气分享的音乐，带给真正喜欢它的听众。我特别讨厌成为焦点，所以之前的项目和化名我都没宣传过——我做音乐一直是为了自己，为了开心，从没想过要靠这个博关注。

我让那些人“找份工作去”，其实就是想让那些执着于扒我所有信息的人赶紧滚蛋，把时间花在有意义的事上，而不是盯着一个在网上做音乐的人不放。有意思的是，有些人把这事儿看得也太严重了——说到底，除了浪费了一些人的时间，什么都没损失。不管怎么说，你们最终还是听到了这首歌，哪怕背后是个骗局。

我明明和那些瞎编的故事没多大关系，却收到死亡威胁、还被人试图人肉搜索，这真的很烦人，所以我才会用开玩笑的方式回怼那些喷子。网上还有人说要“公开处刑”我，还有些被害妄想的帖子说我有好多小号，就为了给自己刷好感。笑了，我既没那个时间，也没那个闲心干这种事。我现实生活里有一大堆事要忙，建假号给自己贴金也太蠢了。

还有人说我伪造自杀、扮演死人？那个 BigYouAre 账号是我 13 岁左右注册的。所有人都觉得这是个“ARG”，但我根本不知道之前用这个账号的人真的自杀了。我用它只是因为这是个现成的账号，之前还在“Lostwave”的论坛发过帖有积分，这样我发的内容就不会被删（结果好像还是被删了）。

对于那些因为被耍得团团转而真心感到不爽的人，我真的很抱歉。浪费了你们的时间，我知道这很不公平。因为法律原因，还有很多事我现在没法说，但希望这些话能解答大家的大部分疑问。我不是来求原谅的，也不是要博同情——我的事已经解决了，我现在过得很好。网上的事我也不放在心上了，要喷就喷，无所谓。

我只是想把事情的来龙去脉说清楚，解释为什么哪怕是个骗局，也有这么多漏洞。真希望大家能赶紧翻篇，这事儿没那么复杂——说到底，它只是一首歌而已，没必要这么执着。我会继续过好我的现实生活，等一切准备就绪，就把原版混音之类的内容发出来。

Realistically, I didn't expect there to be such a reaction like this. Digital Girl is an older project of mine that was never finished, and someone I know in person heard it while I was playing old demos for them. They said to drop everything I was doing and finish that. They were already familiar with lostwave since they knew about my Come Back remix, so the idea formed in their head to make a fake lostwave with this song. I didn't really care for DG. Like I said, it was a scrapped project from like 2019 when I first got my Digitech Talker and started making vocoder songs with it. So, I said sure. I didn't think much would come from it. The song wasn't all that special nor crazy like Fond My Mind or EKT. My task was to handle the audio stuff, and they would handle the story. I am shit with coming up with that stuff, so I just let them do their thing. I didn't have access to any of those accounts (all I had was an old instagram that I ended up using later when I changed the user to emails once I got fed up and wanted to release it on my own terms). Do you know why it took so long to release? Because it was never finished. The concept I made in 2019 and most of those files are lost, including the original recordings of the vocoder. I wanted to remake the entire song from beginning to end so it wouldn't be so dogshit, but they kept pressuring me with threats and made me keep it as is, with some new mixing and a proper intro/outro. This is why the "Lost In The Code" version came out. It was what was SUPPOSED to be the final. No one was supposed to hear that crappy snippet in the first place. Everything was rushed and messy because they wanted internet clout. They wanted to come out as my "curator/manager" and take credit for everything once Digital Girl blew up and was "everywhere." But that never happened. They rushed it, made up the worst possible bullshit stories, and when it backfired, left me to do damage control and handle it. Now suddenly I have access to all the accounts and I was "the only person behind this". Why didn't I just say this on stream? Because they were there with me. Every day was a living hell for me. They were too invested in this whole thing and would camp outside my house waiting for me to come out. I spent almost $1k in studio time and equipment because I just wanted the mix to at least sound decent before I released the demo (which everyone ended up hating, so that's an L I'm taking). But anyway, I have since then moved far away and cut all contact. I've also been taking legal action for the last few months and getting my stuff back (There's a lot more behind the scenes you guys don't know about, that I won't bother talking about since it's more serious and it's personal). Now that everything is pretty much resolved, I can come out and explain the entire situation without fear of them showing up and doing something. Whether people believe it or not, I don't care anymore. Y'all have been lied to beyond belief, so I dont blame the people who say this is bullshit. I continued emails because I had a chance to release music that I was always shy about to an audience who actually enjoyed it. I absolutely despise being in the spotlight, which is why I never bothered to promote any of my last projects or aliases. I always made music for myself and for fun. Publicity was never it for me. Telling people to get a job is my way of telling people who are obsessed with finding every little thing about me to fuck off and do something valuable with their time instead of worrying about some dude making music on the internet. It really is kinda funny how serious some people take this whole situation. Nothing was lost but some people's time. At the end of the day, yall still got to hear the song, even if it was just a hoax story. Getting death threats and doxxing attempts made on me when I didn't have much to do with the bs story has just been annoying, so that's why I just jokingly clap back at trolls. Posts on here calling for my public execution and overly paranoid posts saying I have more alts on here to make myself look good. Lol, I dont have the time nor the care to do that. I have a ton of stuff going on outside of the internet, so making fake accounts to give myself a good rep is silly. Also, something about me faking suicide or roleplaying as a dead guy? I made that BigYouAre account when I was like 13. Everyone thought the entire thing was an ARG. I had no idea there was a guy behind it who actually committed suicide. I only used that account because it was an existing account with karma that previously commented on the lostwave sub, meaning my posts wouldn't get taken down (I think they did anyways). For the people who were genuinely upset about being sent on a goose chase, I truly do apologize. It wasn't fair to have your time wasted, I get that. There's so much to this that I can't speak about atm due to legal reasons, but I hope this clears up most of the questions people had. I'm not asking for forgiveness or for anyone to feel bad for me. My situation has been dealt with, and I'm doing just fine. I don't worry about online stuff either, so the hate can keep coming, that's okay. I just wanted to at least explain wtf went on and why there are so many holes, even for a hoax story. I just hope people move tf on from this, it's not that deep. It's just a song at the end of the day. There's no need to be so fixated on it. I'm going to keep doing my thing IRL and release the original mix and whatnot once everything is ready.”